10/13

i really don't know why i make everything so difficult
no, that's not true,
i really do
it's part of my heritage
part of a belief system that says:
nothing of any worth comes without pain
no growth comes without tremendous strife

so i've embarked on a project
and i am doing my best to make it
as difficult as possible
so as to ensure maximum growth

and it made me so miserable today;
this trying to make a pleasing image of myself,
that i started painting things out again

i like this image
so i got something out of it
and i see the futilty of what i set up for myself
so that's another plus
but there has got to be a better way