10/23

and i find myself drifting backwards
latching on to make believe
living in worlds that don't exist
finding comfort in wishes and dreemes
and i think
how sad
how empty
and i wonder
where it is going to come from
that belief
that spark
that desire
and how will i recognize it when it comes
how will i see it from inside this darkness
part of me says to fight
but that makes me even sadder
because i can't see beyond the futility
honestly i try
honestly i try