so intense
&
mesmerizing

&
scary

You are beautiful. And you worry me.
Life is a terrible bitch sometimes.

My son, the one with the big foot, is 23 years old and schizofrenic.
He is a smart and friendly young man
If he is not crazy
He suffers a lot

It hurts like hell
We all have our own private hells you know
And we are stuck in it.

We just need some small holes to crawl out every now and then, like mice.
You have to make a little hole!
You must!

depression and melancholy can be seductive, they whisper and call you, and it is difficult to escape their grasp. Tennyson's "The Lotos-Eaters" comes to mind. resist the urge to succumb to despair; there is goodness, beauty, creativity, much that you cannot see from within your "private hell!"

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