just recently i have been missing so what and how it was
can't go back, must get rid of this illusion,
can't grow out of it in spite of all mourning and grieving, psy-all-stuff, am sick of medicine...
need a fix, crave for drugs, booze and a time things went my way.
i had will, desire, fought for things, did what i wanted, was successfull and now?! nothing left

the only way tho is onward, time, time...
i keep working, did not give up
count on you*

count on u 2
thx for writing this
i am holding on by a thread