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went to a birthday party tonite...

made me think about how i've avoided celebrating mine for years now and it used to be kind of a big deal. it has nothing to do with age, which i really don't care about, more to do with my somewhat co-dependent need to make sure everyone is having a good time. i guess that just isn't the how i want to spend my birthday.

it also used to be a whole lot easier to deal with; i had a large group of friends who all got along and it was just another excuse to get together. now there have been disagreements, disappointments and desertions, and somehow the politics of it all has become a tad overwhelming.

much easier to stay quiet. though the downside is that it takes me at least a month to celebrate with everyone individually.