3/26

i don't know when the last time was that i was hit so hard by an image, i am not sure i can even describe how i felt but it is what makes everything both so wonderful and so awful... sometimes at the same time.

i am trying, on so many levels:
to make it right
to make it good enough
to do it right
to do it the right way...
sometimes maybe i try so hard, i go past it, it happens in the studio all the time, it has happened a lot in the last 10 days....

and then i try harder.

it's all just a cycle,
if you are spiraling outward and encompassing more,
or spiraling inward and refining,
it's all right.
as long as it's not just round and round in the same path.

so i tried again tonight, if this didn't work, i am basically going to have to start again..