5/17

i woke up this morning and the only place that felt it would be safe today was the studio.

unfortunately. as life (or death) would have it, that is not to be; i am going to a funeral.

the thought of being around a lot of people i barely know is staggering, though i suppose it is one social situation where sudden displays of emotion are somewhat acceptable. and often these things are healing.

my dear friend richard has a large close family and a partner; but now, no parents.
my father died 24 years ago and i have a tiny family; there is a lot of "aloneness" attached to thought of losing my mother.