1/5

as i am fond of saying:
"if i paid to feel this way
i would be loving it"

in other words
i am basically stoned
spacey, disoriented, silly, unable to focus,
everything seems hyper real
and i am sick to my stomach
pretty much like doing dope
which is all right
until you actually want to accomplish something
and then it sucks

the nagging thought in the back of my head is:
when am i going to do all that stuff that i decided not to do before i left????