7/11

as the day goes on
and i still haven't heard from her
i get increasingly worried
i think she is either angry with me
or
that something has happened
the thought that all that effort
has come to this
the thought that everything i did
was still not enough
is a very painful and resonant one with me

her phone still goes to voice mail
i am thinking of calling one of her friends to check up

finally at about 4 she calls me from her bank
she still has no phone
she still hasn't picked up her dog
she is still exhausted
but
she is all right
i can finally relax