2/3

I found myself tonight
going back
way back
into my fotolae archives

i found this from over 8 years ago
there's a truth here
that i have lost
that i am still trying to connect with
finding it was helpful,
at least i have evidence
that this was once real

then there is my process, i am at one of those points where i hate everything i do, it all seems so trite, repetitive, facile, boring, insincere, etc., etc., etc. clearly i am having trouble sticking to rule #1: it's useless to judge while you are in the process because it is impossible to be inside a thing and outside of it at the same time.

however, the bottom line is i that i would rather be in the studio than not, i would rather have difficult than nothing, and i know from experience that it is impossible to create something new and worthwhile without being willing to fail miserably. that doesn't make this part any more fun, any more tolerable or any less painful, it just makes it right as opposed to wrong.