i spend so much time
just sitting around,
waiting
it is so debilitating
but i am also afraid of leaving
because of all the things i have to do
and the lack of energy to do them
oh dear................i know................it is so difficult..............to keep oneself together..................under such distressing circumstances...................
self-control is so overtiring.........................
i can just send you my support again....................
and i hope that your mother is recovering from the surgery..........................