3/9

and no stones or dried lilacs
i forgot about them
but that's really ok
because last night i had a shift...
i often stay up until 2:53am
the time of her death
on the morning of the 9th
usually i am trying to connect with a sense of loss
i am trying to remember the last moments while she was still alive
and the loss that followed once she was gone
last night i connected in a different way
i felt a release
as if i was traveling with her as she departed
or
as she was reborn
it was a freeing experience
and comforting
as if now i can meet her on her plane
instead of always wanting her to visit me