i doubt shallow
i know not shallow
i feel just finding another route
i feel you doing that

in a way this "holding pattern"
that i have been in
is like that
i have been deprived of the place where i usually go way down deep inside
i felt it starting in the studio
this old familiasr feeling
welling up to met me
wanting to engulf me

i kind of shrugged it off
kind of said to it "not now"
there still isn't the time in my life for that sort of thing
and not the emotional space either
and now that i have encopuntered it
in this context
i have to see how big a place there will be for it...


and this is extra-ordinary
and it is rich & deep
even if it is just the surface of things

love (pattern) you