4/11

sometimes you don't know how much something is upsetting you until it is resolved but then the overwhelming relief at having it gone let's you know what a weight it really was.

and sometimes the reverse happens: you think that something might be contributing to your state of mind, but then it turns out that it wasn't that big an issue after all.

so my gallery did a studio visit today and i believe they will be offering me another show, at any rate, rick, my dealer loved what he saw.

i think most people would assume that this sort of situation: having your productivity from the last year on the line, would be anxiety producing. but while i am pleased that i got such a positive response, i can't say i felt the flood of relief one might have expected

in a way this is fine with me: i am glad i am not that invested in what other people think.

however it would have been nice to feel some of the pressure lift.