6/2

i suddenly realized why i am all out of sorts.

for the past 6 months i really have structured my life exactly how i wanted.
well, unstructured my life would be a more apt description.
i allowed very few things to get in the way of my work, if there was a conflict (time, money energy) the studio won, hands down.

in the past week, and seemingly for the one to come, this is not the case;
i have had to, and will have to, deal with things i don't want to and which keep me from painting.
this is really putting me in a state.

i wish i was a cat:
sleep, eat, get love
and when you are working, nothing gets in the way.