2/4

i remember feeling that the end justified the means
that what ever i was going through was fine as long as i was working...

i am feeling like an athlete who has pushed past breaking points, through terrible pain, to achieve a goal
but
is now disabled

i suppose hindsight has 20/20 vision
(or perhaps in this case a better metaphor would be the proverbial monday morning quarterback)
but how could i not have known
that something so painful
for such a prolonged period of time
was most likely going to result in permanent damage.