7/29

this i knew would happen
that when all my obligations were done
(and this meant getting through the past week)
that i would utterly collapse

i some how have to find me
in my own way

not by "getting away from it all"
not by "doing nice things for myself"
but in my own
stupid
stubborn
hitting my head against the wall
(capricorn)
isolating
dark
way
because
right now
that's all i have