8/14

well, it's just the truth
i am still wiped out
not only tired
but unable to cope with stress
AT ALL

i got an email from a friend of mine who said:
"I have suffered greatly from our pack, move and ongoing contractor nightmare...don’t let anyone fool you – it is a very difficult process. UGH!"

and you know, that comforted me
because she is an extremely capable woman,
younger than i am
but with 2 small children
and an extremely demanding business
and she has been going through all this for 2 years.

so it comforts me that i am not crazy,
that even though everyone looks at me
and thinks that it's all over
and that i should be really happy now
that's not true
it's not over
not only is there the dreaded renovation
the move isn't over
or more correctly
i am not over the move

this helps me put it in perspective
yes,
i know that they say that moving comes right after death and divorce as far as stress producing situations go
but honestly
that's just what they say
and it's hard to really understand that on a feeling level

however,
when i stop
and remember
that my friend actually developed permenant nerve damage from her experience
i really "get it"
and i realize how easily
that could be me