11/28

i've been thinking alot about my "feelings"
or how i feel about myself...
because sometimes that doesn't make me "feel" very good


i think for a long time
in the struggle to work more from a "feeling" place rather than a "thinking" place
in the struggle to get out of my head and into my body
i made my "feelings" reality
and it served me
it served me to be more subjective
it served me to use myself as a guide
but
in one major way it backfired
because the reality is
the subjective image i hold of myself
is often not a positive one
and as i was busy strengthening this world of my own creation
i made it very difficult to be able to step back
and seperate myself from a lot of negative feelings

this is the piece of the puzzle i am attempting to work with now