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change the way you do them


so,
today it came to me that a number of years ago i made a conscious decision to live my life in a way that would make the studio a priority
that meant;
letting go of a lot of rules
and a lot of my stringent discipline
as well as my rigid organizational tools
and
letting whatever suffered in the other areas of my life
because of this...
go

but i have continued doing this,
living in this spacey unorganized manner
even though i am not working steadily in the studio
even though i am not in a committed place with my work
even though the most important thing right now is a situation that demands a high degree of organization and consciousness.

this violates a very basic fact:
if the situation changes
so must your way of dealing with it

but my modus operendi has stayed the same
and as a result
everything is falling apart around me

i am in a very practical space right now
and will be for the foreseeable future
i need to rein myself in
go back to some of my more organized and disciplined ways
if i want to survive this
(i can always drop them again)