2/13

this is a tough one,
it's not bad
but it isn't easy

i was looking through images the other day and came across this, it was from my cellphone and really dark and from the thumbnail, i couldn't tell what it was

so i opened it
and felt such a sharp little pang

this picture is a lot of things
it's a glimpse that is so familiar
it is something that i will never see again
it is a tree that was planted for me
it's something i saw every day
sometimes many times a day
for years

up until this point i have had none of these feelings for where i used to live...

yes, i've gone through a lot of grief as i've confronted the countless losses resulting from this move

but i haven't been able to feel the loss of the physical space that was my home for 25 years
until i saw this image...
and it shot right through me
and it still does

so it's just another part of the process to go through
another part of the grieving process
that i guess i am now ready to take on