10/10

so there i am
totally disconnected from myself
not understanding who i am
what i have done
and why
and at my most blank
when all i see is the abyss
the one thing that comes into my mind
is that i need to paint
or
more accurately
that i could paint

and so in the middle of the disorganization
i just started
and it might seem obvious
that this would be the only way back to myself
but i wasn't ready to see it