10/14

given how tired i was today
i never would have thought
that i could have come home
and gone back into the studio
but i did for a little bit

paint is just a language
to use it
you need to have something to say
something you care about deeply
i am not sure that you always have to "know" what that is;
sometimes you find it through the process,
but it does have to be there

so much of me is still buried so deep
i am still cut off
it's as if i having nothing that i need to express

but when i do connect
that sadness is still there