3/27

i have been spending time in the garden
it’s been years since i really have tended it
and that’s been
for many reasons…
one being time and/or timing:
a few years
i was away during the spring/planting season

another reason is
that i always had cats with me
in the garden
and that made me very happy…
but i don’t trust these guys to go outside;
baabar will go right up a tree
and end up god only knows where
and eva just doesn’t come when she’s called
and if she ever got out
she would just hide somewhere
she is so, so shy…
so being in the garden
means a little bit of loss

and there is more loss,
the loss of light
from both
the shadow of a neighbor’s fence
and the growth of surrounding trees…
it’s hard to know what to grow

but
particularly during this terrible time
it seems like the place to be
on theses warm days.

i’ve been digging and planting
and forgetting about the world around me
letting the microbes in the earth
work their magic
it’s the best i’ve felt in ages

and since i ordered some seeds
i need to prepare some beds
!!!