7/25

everything still feels crushed and broken
especially my spirit

i wish this trip had been more healing but i was haunted by memories and surrounded by people constantly

everyone says that it's good to
"get away from it all"
"have a change of scene"

that doesn't work for me,
it just makes me sad that i can't enjoy myself and see the beauty around me

and then i return
and nothing has changed
it's just 5 days later
and i feel even more swamped
and less capable