11/21

and all of this came up today in therapy
you see, it is largely my dad's tape that plays in my head

the one about working all the time
yet never being satisfied with what you've accomplished
or how much
it's as if the desire to work can only come from sheer will & extreme discipline
&
from a sense of having to make good on failure

with no trust that if you enjoy what you do,
you will do it
and with no concept that enjoying what you do is the key
not the doing