11/21

since i moved
i have called on my father
i am not sure if he has answered me

i always felt he was a part of the loft,
it was after all the money i inherited from him
that allowed me to buy it
in some way,
it was his

then
one day
out of the blue
feeling unmoored in brooklyn
an image of him came to me
and realized that hadn't happened in a really long time

i wanted to know what he thought of my life,
where i have ended up,
how i have ended up
and i asked him

as i said,
i am not sure that he answered me