5/15

usually it would be reversed
this image on "neene"

but i am reversed
the person who i was is inside out
the parts of me that i keep at arms length are in control
the pieces of me that i value have no voice

i feel such a profound lack of growth
i am not saying that i have not accomplished anything in the past year
i have
many things
but they have no meaning for me
and i believe they have destroyed not strengthened what i had built before
and i can't pick up the pieces
there is no place to put them
and my biggest fear is
that when that place exists
they will be too tiny
too crumbled
to make any sense