i think you keep finding it
even if you
yourself
are not seeing it

it's all about faith
faith that life is like yoga
that the intent is what counts
and one day
(hopefully sooner
rather than later
for us both)
it will make sense
we will feel
the total of all the intent
of all the trying
of all the persistence

(can you tell
i just had an iced coffee
it always puts me in a more optimistic frame of mind
sometimes it's worth the anxiety)

one coffee is very okay!
:P
i have quit smoking for a few days...
well, anxiety it is all about!
it´s like i want to give up and puff one at once all the time...
i can make it i guess.
one little thing i can change.

i think one day
we will suddenly realize
the process was the thing worth it
all the time it was there
but i could not see because i kept
looking for the result, expecting and demanding.
true path to unhappiness

update:
i am back smoking
could not stand the tension
better that than other things
as i almost went for a drink
instead

:|-~~~~

much
Much
MUCH
better


totally can relate