7/16

"the subject matter is the paint and the paint speaks of human needs"
-joan snyder

today was the first time in so long
that i loved paint again
that i cried just from a sense of connection
that i trusted the ugly
that i could be without thinking

and it is such a relief
even if it was only one day
even though it was maybe only a few hours

and maybe it had something to do with taking care of that little part of me
that has been too numb to speak
maybe because i made her a promise
that if she played with me
i would buy her a present
:D

for those of you familiar with julia cameron's "the artists way" this takes the "artist date" one step further
i call it the artist bribe.