7/3

i started putting up things that are symbolic of my process

the painting on the left is that hard, awful thing in my throat that chokes me,

i have at times tried to
make friends with it,
ask it what it wants,
tear it out,
paint it,
dissolve it,
accept it...

sometimes it goes away for a while
when it returns,
it is always with a vengeance

i've come to see it as the very, very angry part of me.

on the right is a painting i did for my yoga studio,
it was on loan there for about a year
and in exchange i got a 100 class card
this was when i was doing bikram.

so there it is
my past in the present
2 sides of myself
a little still life metaphor
for where i am at