4/10

i am starting to experience what this death means:
that there are some things
i will never ever know,
some things
that we will never ever share
and these are things in the past…

i get that my life continues
and she will not be physically here
to share what happens next with me
but realizing how much of the past
i seem to have missed
how much was left unsaid…

they warn you about this,
but we had been so close
and she was so outspoken
living by the expression:
"what's on the lung, is on the tongue"
that i couldn't imagine there were unknown mysteries…

but there were
but there are
and
and there always will be