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my own private hell...1
by neene on April 22, 2006

4/22

so it's back...

everytime in therapy
that i mention it in the past tense
there is an assumption
(on the part of the therapist)
that it is gone
there is some hopeful sense
that we have vanquished this demon
but that is never the case
on the contrary
it simply seems to be one of my attributes
that at times
my sensitivity
taps into what i have come to refer to as
the pipeline to all the grief in the world
and for some reason
it just wants to flow through me

and i am most vulnerable when i go to paint
when i try to let down my defenses
when i just want to "be"

so while i am not sure this is a "bad" thing
it isn't a "fun" thing
and it's certainly not an "easy" thing
so sometimes it is really hard to get into the studio
and sometimes it is really hard to stay in the studio

today i found a way out by coming up with a new project

oh, btw
that shirt is evidence that oil paint does corrode cloth
you do have to size/prime your canvas
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Messages:

you do not need to carry the world on your back... neither the demons!

be prepared to donate a lot you will probably have no use for next home.

in love with your own private hell
a lot of me in that!

:*
gato_gato - Apr 23, 2006

good morning (just) my dear

indonesians call the durian "the fruit that smells like hell but tastes like heaven"

fwiw
bruce - Apr 23, 2006

gato_gato - Apr 23, 2006

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